Monday, September 29, 2008

Free Blogging Course

I'm evaluating a multi-media course on blogging from the folks at Simpleology. For a while, they're letting you snag it for free if you post about it on your blog.

It covers:

  • The best blogging techniques.
  • How to get traffic to your blog.
  • How to turn your blog into money.

I'll let you know what I think once I've had a chance to check it out. Meanwhile, go grab yours while it's still free.

I have not received it yet but I am excited to try it out!
I love you! Bless you!

Tina Mae

Sunday, September 28, 2008

My Blog has been Awarded!!!!

MsFit of Quests of a MsFit has sent me an award!

Thank you so much MsFit for this award, I am overwhelmed with joy for I now get to share this award with others!

Here are the instructions for the following Brillante Weblog Premio award recipients:
1. Place the logo on your blog.
2. Link to the person who awarded you.
3. You can nominate up to 5 blogs.
4. You can then add their links to your blog. ***(Use blog's button if available.)
5. Leave a message in the comment section to each nominee on their blog.

I wish to award this same award to:

Secret Thoughts and More

Congrats to both of you for all of your hard work! I enjoy your blogs and wanted to take the time to let you know that you have touched me and others!

Bless you both!
Tina Mae

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Back in the Saddle Again!!!

I cannot believe that it has been three weeks since I posted. I left for vacation on September 3rd and took my laptop so that I could post while gone. Internet access was sketchy at best and I could not post. I returned home yesterday with one thought “ Always post in advance before going on vacation!” Today as I reflected on that thought I realized that the Good News IS that this is exactly how it is supposed to be. For some reason the universe deemed that I would not post for three weeks and so be it. Reminds of the book I am reading now entitled “Loving What Is” by Byron Katie. This remarkable woman reminds us that everything is at it should be! I know that this concept can at times be hard to grasp but it is so true.

I would like to take the time to give you my example of how this is true. Like a lot of you out there I have had events in my life that I had deemed as traumatic and hurtful. In reality, these events were hurtful and traumatic. They wounded me deeply and touched areas of my soul that I did not know even existed. At the time, I did not realize how these events helped me grow and expand my consciousness. I did not take the time to see that every experience shapes me into who I am at this very moment. The most important lesson is that if I resist or try to repress any moment of my life I am in some way denying myself. How can that be? Simply put each and every one of the moments in my life has contributed to the person that I am at this very moment. I love the person I am right here and right now. I am content with my attributes, my flaws, my talents, my passions, my physical body, and my soul. Without any further ado here is my story:
I was married to man right out of high school and we had two beautiful children together. As the relationship progressed I realized that his drug use was not only a weekend “fun time” but now was an everyday addiction. This addiction progressed to selling drugs out of house. I knew that my children and I must go and as a result we moved into our own home. My children were very young at the time and it was a good decision for all of us and I married my second husband who raised my children as his own.

Years later my ex-husband was back in my children’s life and wanted to see them regularly. At 14 and 16 I believed that they could handle the situation and he promised that he was clean and off drugs. I unfortunately gave him the benefit of the doubt and believed that he was clean. However, he was not and in his addiction believed that if our children where going to do drugs it would be better for them to do it with him than on the streets. To make a long story short, both of our children became addicted to Meth. My son was in prison as a result of the drug and my daughter is just now getting her life together as a result of this experience.
I have struggled for years with the emotions inside of me towards my ex-husband and at the time his girlfriend. There was always a distance, anger, or should I say more like a rage! I was the mama bear and this man, in my opinion, had hurt my children.

In the last few years my ex-husband was in prison and completed a recovery program. He has helped many in his recovery and is very active in meetings and other programs to help others with drug addiction. In January of this year my daughter moved back into the state and decided to live with her father. This decision was based on the fact that he lived in the city and the college she wanted to attend was in the same city. He helped her move back and has given her a place to live rent-free. There was not much of a relationship between the two of them and they have worked hard over the past months to build one based on trust and love.

I watched as my daughter worked through developing this relationship (helped her where I could) and saw the emergence of a woman, the little girl was fading quickly. She was growing stronger and more confident while expressing what she wanted to this man she considered somewhat a stranger. This was real growth for her. I found myself writing a card last month to thank him and his wife for making my daughter feel secure and loved in their home. As I wrote this card I realized that my feelings of rage had now gone and were replaced with feelings of gratitude that they were a part of her life. I now love them for they are a part of me as are all of you.

It seems in my life that people have a hard time with forgiveness for they feel they must be nice and have contact with the ones that they forgive and for me this is false. I chose to write the card of gratitude to them so they would know that we are grateful for what they are doing. However, there is no reason for them to be a part of my life except through my daughter. I will not become instant friends or let them into my inner circle of friends. You see I love them for they are part of us all but they are not in vibration with what I want. We all know that we can love one another without agreeing with the actions of others, or their views. It is called unconditional love and we do it with relatives all the time. Forgiveness is the same. I have created these events without being aware, now being aware; I take responsibility and concentrate on positive outcomes! The most positive outcome is my children. They are just as they should be, they are wonderful and they are perfection. If I were to change any of the experiences of their life it would change them!

I would not change one single moment of my life, I am thankful for all that I am and I am grateful in this moment that I remember who I am and more importantly that I remember who you are and our connection to each other and all there is.

Bless you and may your heart and soul be filled with love for yourself and all that is.

Tina Mae

Monday, September 1, 2008

Greif Just a Part of Life? Life after Death?

This week has been trying to say the least for me. I lost my best friend after 16 years of being inseparable. His name was Ralphee and I miss his physical presence desperately! He was always there, regardless if I was sleeping, eating, or just playing at the computer. He was always with me, with no expectations and all he wanted to do was be near me. I did not realize until he was gone that this poodle of mine was an extension of my being. He was not only my pet but also my companion and life without him seems empty. I am lonely even in the presence of other people.

The irony of this story is that I know that he still “is”. He as well as all of us cannot cease to exist. The only thing that ceases to exist is his physical body. Intellectually I understand this. Unfortunately, this knowledge has not made the process of grieving any easier. The pain is no less severe. The difference that I have found in the process of grieving since my awakening is that I am feeling the feelings. I am observing as I grieve without judgment. In short I am accepting what is at this moment without deciding if it is good or bad. Ralphee is gone and it hurts – this is what is at this moment.

I have shifted my thoughts throughout the process of how much I loved him and how happy he was to see me whenever I entered the house. I know that as time goes by I am creating the feelings of happiness and contentment as I think of Ralphee. These thoughts of happiness will then become a habit when I think of Ralphee. Thus, the grief will pass and will be replaced by the loving thoughts of my friend.

In any situation that at first seems like it may be negative, one only needs to look at it for a moment without any judgments. Life is merely a stream of moments – these moments pass and in those moments there are many experiences for us to grow and learn from. If these experiences are labeled by us to be good or bad we could be missing the whole point. I found from really experiencing my grief through this process that this too shall pass. I am strong enough to handle everything that is given to me. Everything that happened on the day my friend died was just as it should be. As I lower my resistance and just be in the moment, the moments are incredible and have the potential to touch my soul if I only allow it. Every moment is a gift and one should learn to be present and observe!

I love you all! Thank you for allowing me to share my thoughts please share yours with me so that we all can continue to increase our awareness!

Tina Mae